2021.11.28 20:02 sm00thsn4k3 One of my worst days in a while.
tw/ dysphoria tw/ depression tw/ anxiety tw/ mental illness
Hi. This is my first post on this subreddit, having only just joined after having one of the worst mental health days I've had in a long time, but I just need to vent. I'm perpetually lonely and feel like my love life is on this ticking clock that's going to run out (or already has), and I don't know how to fix it.
I'm currently 20 (almost 21), and am bi, non-binary (they/she pronouns please!) and have two neurodivergencies, whilst struggling with mental illness. To add, I'm also plus size, with hormone issues meaning that I am quite a masculine-bodied person with facial hair etc. In terms of my past dating history, I haven't had a relationship in almost four and a half years, and all of the information that I mentioned above I think contributes to that and makes me feel not only isolated romantically but isolated in my experiences.
It's not my fault, because I am the way that I am, but I personally feel that society only accepts certain types of people/bodies as attractive, and with so many hurdles to overcome, dating is not only unsuccessful (I've been on multiple dates since that relationship) but daunting. I've used dating apps and also met people through mutual friends etc, but if I do get talking to someone they just leave after one or two dates (or after weeks of talking and no meet up) and then nothing comes of it, making me feel more lonely. It's hard to 'get back on the horse' again every time something doesn't work out when it takes so much for me to build myself up to get out there in the first place. With all of my quirks, (and having received comments about, for example my body hair, from past dates) it makes me feel like I am an undesirable mix of qualities of a person and not good enough.
I also understand that I'm quite young still and that I shouldn't need to worry about being in relationships, and instead focus on having fun. I agree with that, and I have a pretty fulfilling life outside of romance, but when things fall apart I wish I had a partner there to prop me up. (Just to clarify, this is not the reason I want a relationship. I want companionship and to share my life with someone, I believe I have a hell of a lot of love to give. I've been trying to work on myself mentally and emotionally for a while, and I would give them the same support when they're having a rough time. I don't think I'd be the first to say that there's merit in having a partner there to help you when you're down, and that there's certain roles that family/friends/partners each can fill separately). I live between university and home (mainly university currently) and I'm supported well in both households, but there's only so much friends and family members can do. Two of my housemates are in relationships and their partners live with us, and I love that they have their partners here to support them when they have their down days, but I can't help feeling sad when I can't get the same.
On top of all this, I'm only just starting my journey as a non-binary person, and I don't know if I'd feel comfortable enough to date without transitioning more as I can get quite dysphoric - which I'm afraid would make me uncomfortable with physical affection etc. Not presenting the way that I want to also means I don't feel comfortable in my body, which also affects my confidence and probably my dating success. I'm also struggling a bit with anxiety and depression recently, and I wouldn't want to get in a relationship and then not be able to give my all because of it, when I can just about keep up with my life as it is.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't know where to go from here. I have my down days and my good days, but recently it seems that my days are more down than good. Any changes I feel I need to make for myself would be long term, and I am just generally uncomfortable and lonely. I feel as though the older I get the more I may get used to feeling this way and may never find anyone (even though I really want to) and may end up just believing that that's the way it has to be. If anyone relates, has any words of encouragement or constructive advice, that would be amazing.
Thank you for reading.
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2021.11.28 20:02 ILoveTheCrew2 Is this game worth getting on PS4?
2021.11.28 20:02 Solfaroiy Centaurify - ⚡ Launching Now on BSC
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2021.11.28 20:02 tarokeebs What is something you wish you knew as a kid that could have saved you from getting in a lot of trouble?
2021.11.28 20:02 Joseph-8V28 Egg🐶irl
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2021.11.28 20:02 jwaycockq Billy Kidman, Big Show, Torrie Wilson, Chris Jericho, Edge, Dean Malenko, and Stacy Keibler chilling by the pool in 2001.
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2021.11.28 20:02 dorkylesbian I have zero training and zero skill (obviously) but I spent a weekend building a cat enclosure.
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2021.11.28 20:02 Barbiec0a Too good to be true
I purchased an iPhone pro max 13 about a week and a half ago. Like many I was told it was on back order and would arrive by dec 17. To my surprise I got notified that it was indeed shipped. It arrived yesterday to my local Costco, where I did my order. I called them this morning asking if I can come in and get my phone. Not only was I told they didn’t have it, but that I wasn’t even in their system. Wtf!? I was told to call Verizon, contacted them and they verified it was indeed delivered. I called them back and was told I’d have to come and speak to the manager. I was like it was delivered. I just want my phone. Ugh.
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2021.11.28 20:02 groundnewsfeed Ava White: Boy, 14, charged with murder of 12-year-old in Liverpool city centre
2021.11.28 20:02 MalliableManatee Looking for small lowsec corp.
I'm looking for a small lowsec corp that does a little of everything. I have 2 characters (same account). Just coming back after taking a break and would like to join a lowsec corp and help them defend their space. I enjoy ratting, missions, mining, transport, logi during fleets (although i'd need to know preferred fits), just looking for a place to call home and help defend. If you'd like to chat, please let me know your in game name and i'll reach out to you!
Thanks for your time!
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2021.11.28 20:02 Budget-Song2618 The Delusional Commitment to the Doctrine of "Full Spectrum Dominance" is leading the U.S. and the World to Disaster - CounterPunch.org
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2021.11.28 20:02 Jrose798 You are stranded in the Amazon forest for a year, which would be more challenging mentally or physically and would you survive or thrive, alone or with 5 strangers?
2021.11.28 20:02 willydashnilly Looking for people to raid Registeel.
2021.11.28 20:02 spainiel Why is Giovanni VB so small?
2021.11.28 20:02 ICouldPost What are your thoughts on the emulator cartrdiges like the ED64?
I've had one for about a year now and I love it. Haven't had any complaints. But I'm wondering why more people haven't gone this route, especially considering the price.
Is it just a historical value for people to hunt down the originals?
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2021.11.28 20:02 VincentMaximoff White Fox's Lifestyle Series 2 Uniform
I don't know about you but I love that uniform so much, but I wasn't even playing the game when it was released. That one and Silk's summer days uniform is acquired by tokens of their events. Does anyone know that if it is going to be on sale when Christmas uniforms go on sale?
I am going to start white fox quest tomorrow, she is really a support God but I also like her so I'm curious :)
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2021.11.28 20:02 suppotato26 Baby dragons took down the mean bears!
2021.11.28 20:02 1c4t what a disgusting tiktok acc
2021.11.28 20:02 doughnutmaker077 How many bloodied survivors/killers?
2021.11.28 20:02 thr0waway95720012344 Zone 2 training question
Hi all, I'm just starting out in the sport after quitting smoking 6 months ago and trying to understand the method to train. I downloaded the 12week free sprint triathlon training program from myProCoach website and it's great and got me started. However I'm having a really hard time with the zone 2 training,specially on the runs. I started running 2 months before starting the training and can do a 5km with a 5:40km pace however I spend 90% in zone 5 as my average HR is around 170. I believe my max HR is 188. I'm 39 year old male if that makes any difference.
On the bike, it's easier to slow down my HR and be in zone 2 but on the run I feel like I have to speed walk to keep it in zone 2.
Since I'm fairly new to running and overall sport, should I continue doing the 5k at my pace to build more or do speed walking to keep my HR down like the training says?
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2021.11.28 20:02 seekingthelight1 Intro to Stats PSYC 202 Final study session/overview
2021.11.28 20:02 Special_Half8817 Road To The SKY
2021.11.28 20:02 21july21 He just doesn't care at all
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2021.11.28 20:02 eek420 Ranked is unplayable after Azaan's release
Before Azaan's launch, I was able to work my way up in ranked to Gold 1. I've only picked up this game again a month or two ago and generally be able to have fun, even in ranked.
Since Azaan's update, ranked is completely unplayable if you are solo queuing. Since his update, I've deranked down to Gold V after constant loss streaks. Constant matches of teammates going afk, making horrible team comp picks, and generally people just not even trying if we lose the first point. I know I can alway partially blame my own performance, but I don't feel like I've been regressing myself this much as the only factor.
Is anyone else really struggling to get a decent match in ranked?
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2021.11.28 20:02 Kristio123 MSI and Rivatuner caused my pc restart and not boot up
I've just recent gotten a pc, and installed MSI and Rivatuner to monitor my pc performs(Did not overclock it). All of the sudden the next day, i couldn't boot my pc up without the restarting mid boot process. And when I finial got to, it restarted there.
The only thing i could find to stop that was to uninstall MSI and Rivatuner.
So far, I haven't been having anymore problems, but I'm very confused why that happened, so I'm looking for some words of wisdom.
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